Happy New Year Y’all! Yeah, I now I am 21 days late. For some reason, I seem to have entered this year with much caution. It’s probably because I am at a lost for words when it comes to the craziness going on in the world. I woke up on Friday morning feeling really down and I just couldn’t identify what in the world was wrong.
I immediately prayed for my family and asked God to place a circle of protection around all my loved ones. Especially, since my baby’s school were on their way to Legoland that day. A few hours into work, I realized that I was just in a state of uncertainty. I had just completed the application process for kindergarten for my daughter and I can tell you without a shadow of a doubt that I am soooooo very nervous about the New York City public school system.
I never wanted to raise kids in NYC. It was always my desire to move out of the metropolitan area before she started big girl school. However, life hasn’t really panned out that way. Why am I so worried? I’m worried about the world my daughter will encounter in school under this new era. A time where the color of her skin might bring about the ignorant comments from her peers or the biases of her teachers. Yes, as a parent, I am afraid. Gasp! I can’t believe it, but I am afraid.
I wish I could keep my little angel in a cocoon and just surround her with love, encouragement and support 24×7. Unfortunately, I can’t! I’m going to have to let her go. I’m going to have to trust complete strangers to care for, instruct and mold my child for more than 8 hours per day. Despite all of this, one thing keeps me encouraged. I know that we have instilled in her the love of God and the confidence that Jesus is with her wherever she goes.
I am encouraged to know that when she comes home – she will be surrounded by loads of love and upliftment. We’ve got to wait till spring to know where our little princess will enroll for the fall, but I am confident that God is leading this process. I know that He will hand-pick where she goes and even who her teachers will be. I am confident that the God who formed her in my womb and took care of her for the past 4 years, will continue to guide her steps on this new journey.
I can’t believe that my baby is already going to Kindergarten this fall. Jesus take the wheel!
How did you handle the Kindergarten woes?